In this installment of my Year to Radical Change series, I go back a little further to 2014. I thought I had it all together. Career, marriage, Girl Scout leader, homeownership… then it burned to the ground. By the end of that year I was living in a vermin infested apartment and had serious health issues.
I’ll just do a brief rundown starting in April 2014. Much of this info is based on posts from facebook. I have more data from some months than others, and I’m also watching just for the parts that stand out the most to give you a flavor how fucking ridiculous things were for me.
Don’t want to watch the whole video? Here’s a quick recap:
April 2014: my husband of 17 years left me, I interviewed for my dream job.
The rest of 2014: a shit storm of insanity with my life and health breaking down while I tried to keep moving forward and figuring out the new life I was suddenly living. The picture above was from November 29, 2014 at a work event with Ainsley. I felt like dog shit but was super hopeful about the upcoming year.
As 2015 began I thought all was on an upswing. I loved my new job, I felt challenged, excited, engaged, supported and appreciated. I thought I was taking pretty good care of myself with diet changes and paying more attention to recovering my health.
As it turns out, 2015, 2016 and 2017 were all banner years for epic, crushing, painful shit storms interspersed with sunshine, fun, playfulness, traveling and learning.
I’ve learned many new skills that I did not have back in 2014. I now know how to feel my feelings as they arise rather than stuff them, have compassion for myself, take rest days, (especially when lots of difficult things were happening) and how to allow my community to help me. I have also identified one of my primary numbing/coping patterns is to stay REALLY REALLY BUSY.
What are the specific ways that you take care of yourself during challenging times? Do you get more rest? Exercise? Take alone time? Or eat better so your body can recover? Comment below and let me know!
If you are realizing you could improve in this area, what is one small change you can make that would improve how well you take care of yourself by 10%? Start small – bite size changes are much easier to maintain long enough to make them a habit.
I love you fiercely.
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