“Oh crap, not this again…”
That was something I used to find myself saying frequently. It captures my consistently negative and defeatist attitude and was how I greeted most challenges. I was able to recognize that something felt like a familiar experience, but I didn’t believe I had any other choice than to react in the exact same way I had before. No surprise I kept getting the same bummer results.
Interrupting the cycle
In early 2013 I started to learn how to interrupt the cycle of ‘input feels familiar and it’s upsetting/react without any forethought and from a place of fear’ and add a pause in the middle. Over time the pause shifted the cycle to something more like: ‘input feels familiar and is upsetting…../….breathe…./….respond with some awareness but still react from a place of fear’. Incrementally as I continued to practice, to catch myself as I felt the familiar revving up feeling in my chest and tightness in my belly the cycle could shift to: “input feels familiar and is upsetting…./….breathe…./…oh this is different, what is actually happening now?/….breathe…./…what options are available to me to choose from as a response?’
Eventually I noticed that it was more than familiar; there was a cyclical nature to the input as well the feelings/sensations/responses. The specific details would of course vary but there were many aspects of the experience that kept repeating and each time the cycle came around again I noticed it felt like I was experiencing it from a higher level of awareness. Sophia had a similar realization and illustrated the concept for me with an upward spiral around a heart; adding that there is an infinite expansion of love and joy available for me, as well as it is exciting see patterns from a more compassionate space than I had been. We both notice this cycle operating in our lives frequently and it has become an indispensable tool for working through stuff as it comes up. Here’s a hint: being a Radical Pleasurist is not about non-stop pleasure. It is also about surrendering to whatever life gives me, fully accepting what is, and having gratitude for the entire experience.
I have a visualization for this process, called the upward spiral. Easier to demonstrate in video:
What do you think? Does the concept of the upward spiral resonate for you? How do you see it operating in your life?
What practices do you have for stopping and becoming aware of your cycle?
I love you fiercely!
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