This article and many to come will be part of the Radical Pleasure Series. The series focuses on ways to live pleasurably every day of your life. Enjoy!
Sometimes I straight up feel like shit. Some days I cannot seem to wake up fully, I experience pain in my joints and muscles, I feel anxious, heavy and inexplicably tearful. Today was one of those days and I had to pull out all the stops to move through it. Once I was through the worst of it and had a bit more energy, I made this video to share how fall leaves have helped me shift out of a funk.
I began this practice three years ago and it really helped bring me out of the past I was wallowing in or the future trip I was on. I was often positive that it would be impossible to feel any relief, but as think back on what I was moving through each fall I am incredibly thankful that this practice was in my toolbox. In brief, here is a snapshot of my experience each of the past three fall seasons:
- 2016: I was on medical leave. It was a struggle to walk my dog around the block; sometimes walking her was the only reason I got out of bed. This practice helped distract me enough to have a (brief) respite from the physical pain I was experiencing as well as allowed me to discover moments of such deep connection with nature that I cried tears of appreciation nearly every walk. The beauty I discovered as I paused and lost myself in a flower, colorful berry or fall leaf was astounding. I stopped calling them ‘dog walks’ in favor of ‘flower walks’.
- 2017: One of the hardest, darkest phases of my life was September – December 2017. I was in the midst of a terrible break up, continuing my journey towards a healthy body, supporting my daughter as she began her recovery from a head injury and processing a particularly painful childhood trauma. I was supporting myself and my daughter as a rideshare driver. Driving became my escape from “real life”, where I could breathe, scream and cry when I was alone in the car, and experience incredible moments of connection with the beautiful humans who rode from point A to point B with me. My connection to and awareness of the fall leaves as they evolved was a regular reminder that what I was experiencing was a natural part of the process to release that which is not in my highest good.
- 2018: I was rediscovering life from a completely new perspective and while it was mostly positive changes, even positive shifts are a shock to the system that can be perceived as uncomfortable. I continued to release heavy loads of past trauma and programming. The comfort I found in the recurring cycle of connection to and awareness of the fall leaves gave me something familiar to tether myself to.
Will you try this practice? Please comment below or email me, I’d love to hear about your experience. If you feel inspired to take photos of what you see, please tag #radicalpleasure101 when you share it with your friends. I look forward to seeing your gorgeous photos!
Love you fierce,